It's Friday. And we had a busy morning of our favorite class together. Then home for lunch. We tossed around the idea of running a few errands. But, instead have been home puttering, painting, cleaning out the pantry, and just enjoying a cold dreary fall day.
I have felt more on top of things this week. But do you ever have moments of shear panic. Like you just feel like you are failing at EVERYTHING. That you have messed up priorities. And instead of cleaning out the pantry you should have done something else. Everything is just fine. But I still feel this panic going into the weekend. I want to do it all.
So, instead of putting away a load of laundry Syd and I are going to take to the kitchen and make some apple crisp to go with the dinner that isn't planned. Maybe that is the thing we should get going instead of apple crisp.
Everyday when the boys jump out of the car at school drop off I shout some random little things to them. To Henry I say "Eat your lunch." But mostly, I always say:
"Hey boys! Be kind. Work hard. Say thank you."
Today I made it to the gym. I did it right after I dropped Syd off at preschool. I didn't stop at home first. I knew if I did I wouldn't get there. It is pouring rain. HARD. But I still went. Even though a quiet house and an afternoon cup of coffee sounded amazing. But, I did it. I just walked 2 miles on a treadmill. But I got there. And it is a start. One of the things that motivated me was my friend gave me a link to something she heard at her church last weekend. So I listened while I walked. It was about parenting.
It talked about the end game. And having a plan and parenting with a purpose. It asked us to think about what we want for the end game. And I immediately thought of those three things I say to my kids as they pop out of the car.
There are so many adjectives I want to instill in my children. But consistently, these are the three that I say when they leave me to go play somewhere, participate in an activity, or head off to school.
I want them to be kind.
I want them to work hard.
I want them to have grace.
What are three things that are important to you when it comes to looking to the future and what you instill in your children?
This is not the attitude or mood in our house right now.
Wine and piano music and a few lamps is going to HELP me feel more patient. We are going on an hour of battling to get homework started, accomplished, or checked.
I have some massive attitudes and I am trying VERY hard to remember they are tired. Homework is often boring and repetitive. BUT, seriously, what could take 10 minutes is taking an hour to just get accomplished.
All is actually quiet at the moment. Cheers. Counting on momentum to get these tired boys through the next hour and a half, because bedtime is coming fast for the oldest who couldn't sleep at 4:45 and has been up since. And the first grader is still cashed out after a full day of school.
Three things I am grateful for:
1. Time today to move a few things around in the house to give things a fresh little feel.
2. Rainy day at home with some banana bread making with my girl and two boys who were excited to have some for snack.
3. Soccer was cancelled so we can actually all sit down for dinner and we can have a very normal night (which actually is sadly not the normal anymore).
And I have never felt more sure of all the choices we have made for him.
1/2 kindergarten, which meant open enrolling him. Swim lessons, soccer, break from soccer, and now Scouts. Each thing has pushed him and set the stage for him loving first grade.
He is liking school. He is heading off with his brother with a smile and a wave.
He gets himself to his class independently (last year it was a few weeks of mama walking him to the door). He is bringing his lunch (and yes, I have packed it EVERY day). And I am challenging him to try the hot lunch in the coming weeks. Most of his lunch comes home uneaten though. I tease him that it is because he is talking too much. I know this isn't the case. I know what a change it is to go from sitting at the table with just mom and little sis...to managing your own lunch box of goodies surrounded by chaos and fun. So we are taking steps to get more food in him. Today he went with only the necessities. Nothing fun. We will see how much comes home.
Bedtime, like the actual time is our big challenge these days. When Charley was his age he was in bed by 7. This kid has an older brother who stays up a bit which means he has been staying up. But, both boys are slowly settling in earlier and earlier. They need it. But he resists. Too much.
More soon! Things are calming down here and I am on the road to more balance. I can feel it.
For the Love of Naps - Sarah